Outlander, Catriona Balfe & Emerald City Comicon — A Fan's Revealing Journey

Written by: Erika Schmale, Guest Contributor

Attending a Comic Con is not something I thought I would EVER do. For one, I’m borderline claustrophobic and panic at the mere thought of crowds and lines. When “forced” to be part of either, I tend to get anxious and dizzy, my hands get sweaty and I feel light-headed. If it becomes too much, I emotionally turn in and shut down. Additionally, I am not very creative when it comes to costumes, and I don’t really enjoy standing out in that way. Most of all, there is nothing that I am that passionate about that I would want or be willing to commit the time, money or effort that is required for a Comic Con. But, this was before Outlander  came into my life...

I remember the moment I found out that Sam Heughan and Caitriona Balfe were coming to Emerald City Comicon. I was at my parents’ house, scrolling through Instagram, and an image of Sam caught my eye (not a rare occurrence for me to be drawn in by a picture of that man). I watched the video clip, and as soon as I heard the sentence, “…I just wanted to say how excited I am to see all the fans at the Emerald City Comicon, in March, in Seattle…” I immediately declared (quite loudly): “MOM, I HAVE TO GO TO SEATTLE! Sam and Cait are going to Seattle!” I don’t think I have ever been more serious about such a spontaneous decision in my life.

My mother then reminded me that I am a grad student in my last semester of grad school, and that I should probably confirm that I did not have any major assignments due that week. In my excitement, I almost completely forgot about real life and any or all commitments I might have. After checking my schedule, I was relieved to find that I was able to take that Friday off. Without looking back, I bought two tickets to Emerald City Comicon, completely unsure what was in store, but knowing that an adventure awaited me.


I consider myself a very loyal Outlander fan. Granted, I only discovered Outlander over the holidays in 2015 (I know, I know, I had to ask myself if I had been living under a rock!). My father had actually read the first book, and he rented the DVDS for season 1 for family movie night. (Yes, I am 27 and still have family movie nights with my parents whenever possible; I live for it!) He says to me, “I have this really cool show for us to watch, I read the book and I think you’re going to love it. Just sit down and watch. It’s about time travel and Scotland.” *insert raised eyebrow* I am not the biggest time travel fan, but it’s my dad and we have similar taste in movies, so I decided to try.

I swear, the episode started, Claire said the famous intro lines, and that was it. The scenery, the background music, Caitriona’s voice, Diana’s words, all of it. In that moment I fell in love, completely, utterly hooked and obsessed with Outlander till the day I die. Yet for me, a huge part of the appeal of Outlander is not just the story, but also the amazing talent behind these characters who we love so much (some of you for twenty years!).

They say not to meet your idol because you are at risk of being let down or even devastated. Whoever said that has never met Caitriona Balfe.


As much as I love all things Outlander, and of course Sam Heughan, my main goal of Emerald City Comicon was to give Caitriona Balfe a letter, and I was set on doing just that. There were things I needed to thank her for, and I knew I wouldn’t be able to say them in person with such limited time interacting with her. So, I put my thoughts together and formatted a letter to my idol and someone I admire immensely. What I ultimately wrote in my letter to Caitriona was rather personal, so I have edited my letter for my privacy, but I wanted to share some sentiments from it that I feel may resonate with fellow Outlander fans and Caitriona admirers.

Caitriona,

I just wanted to say Thank You. Thank you for bringing to life such a strong and inspirational female character, and for putting your heart and soul into this series that makes so many people so happy. Your portrayal of Claire is both inspirational and moving. She is brave, intelligent, loyal, nurturing, determined, driven and independent, and I truly believe that a person cannot portray someone with those qualities so authentically without also embodying them themselves. That, or you are just that good of an actress; I believe both! ;) You and Claire have inspired me to be a stronger woman, and have helped to give me a voice during a very difficult time in my life. Having Outlander in my life has been an unexpected blessing. I discovered it over the holidays in 2015, and I haven't looked back since. The show and (first two) books have provided me with an escape; a portrayal of a strong, fearless woman to look up to, as well as something exciting to immerse in and enjoy with family and friends.

It's amazing who and what one chooses to turn to during life's difficult moments, but how beautiful that we can escape our trials and tribulations, or even find strength to face them, through the form of a beloved book, film or show, or through an inspirational character, or even the actor that portrays them. I truly appreciate your support for those whose voices aren’t heard. You stand for so many things that truly matter; you are using your platform for so much good and it does not go unnoticed. So again, I just wanted to say thank you, and for you to know that what you are doing does make a difference. You are a truly talented person, and so beautiful, inside and out. You provide happiness and encouragement to those who admire you, whether or not you realize it.

I also want to thank you for sharing your life with your fans through social media. I think in our excitement we forget that you don't owe us that. It's a hard balance to strike with social media, when someone you admire is so within reach, yet also not, and wanting to respect that boundary. We're all guilty of it, myself included, of overdoing it just to get any notice from those we admire through Twitter, Instagram, etc...but from the true fans, it comes from a place of genuine intentions. We just really love Outlander and admire you as an actress and as the person we believe we know you are :) You seem like a good person, one who genuinely cares about the rights and well-being of others. You appear passionate and driven in your approach to your career. You seem like someone who appreciates and enjoys what life has to offer, like good food, the arts, travel and adventure. You strike me as a very loyal and committed friend who could spend hours simply talking about life over coffee or a glass of wine. Ultimately, you seem like someone who could be as much of a friend to your fans as their own friends are to them.

I wish you all the best Caitriona, with your career, in your relationships and with life in general. Never change. Congratulations on everything; you deserve it!



I was extremely nervous to meet Cait and to give her my letter. I also knew deep down that I may not even be allowed to give her my letter, having heard through the grapevine from a con pro, “Don’t give them anything! It will get taken away and they will never even see it.” When I heard that, my heart sank into my stomach and I was devastated. Still, I was hopeful that I could give her my letter in person. It was worth a try at least, right?

Leading up to my picture, I was a ball of nerves, but in line I met similar Outlander (and Sam and Cait!) fans who were also anxious. We started talking about our love for all things Outlander, and I completely forgot about my anxiety and sore feet and stiff body. I was surrounded by my “people,” my Outlander family. I felt safe, happy, content and like I could be my Outlander obsessed self with absolutely no judgment.


Finally the moment came. I thought I knew what I was going to say and do, but the instant I saw them, that went straight out the door. Cait greeted my best friend and me with a “Come on over, ladies!” and Sam with a huge smile on his face; all I could do was grin the giant beaming grin that would not soon leave my face… I thought taking the picture was enough, but right after it was taken, Caitriona bent her knees, and with her arm still around me, turned me to face her and looked me directly in the eyes and said to me, "Thank you so much for being here!" No, Caitriona. Thank YOU.


Again, when the time came to meet her for my autograph and give her my letter, I completely forgot everything I had planned to say. I nervously approached her and she asked me how I was and I her, and as she was signing my picture I pushed the letter towards her and said, “I wrote you a letter and I really hope you get the chance to read it. I went through a really challenging time last year and you and the show helped me get through it…” The look on her face said it all (which also caused me to completely lose my train of thought and forced me to look down at my feet while I gathered my thoughts and tried to form a coherent sentence to say next). She looks you in the eye with such genuine attentiveness and care, like you legitimately matter to her. When someone who inspires you looks at you like you inspire them equally just as much, it's extremely moving and powerful. I won’t soon forget that moment. I’ll never know if she read my letter or not, but that look was enough to tell me that I matter and that I am enough.

I believe these actors and these characters give people hope. Hope that someday they will find their own version of a love like Claire and Jamie's, or find the inner strength to face an impossible challenge or choice in their life, or simply an escape from the struggles or demands of their everyday lives. I think I speak for us all when I say that Diana, Caitriona and Sam have truly given us a very special gift.


In a word, Emerald City Comicon was crazy. I took a car to a train to a plane to another train to another car to get to Seattle, and showed up for the panel Friday morning on five hours of sleep. I made plans that fell through; I met people whose plans fell through; I made plans to meet fellow Outlander ECCC goers and never saw them. Lining up for the panel, pictures and autographs seemed endless, and for the most part was rather disorganized. The building was hot, and of course the room with the picture line was the hottest and most uncomfortable of all. But, you know what?

It was all worth it.

I learned that these events are extremely pricey, crowded, hot and slightly disorganized. I learned that Outlander fans are some of the most passionate, friendly, interesting and wonderful people out there. I witnessed a sisterhood of women from diverse walks of life, coming together from all over the country (and even other countries!) to share in this united love of a book that has affected or changed all of our lives in some way. Leading up to ECCC, I enjoyed seeing all the posts from those planning on attending the event. Everyone’s story about how they came to love Outlander, and their excitement for ECCC made me even more excited to meet these women in person. It was beautiful to see how connected we all are, without most of us ever having met before. I think one of my biggest regrets from ECCC was not meeting more of the amazing women I saw posting about going. I would have loved to meet them and hear their stories about what Outlander means to them, especially those fans who have loved these books since the very first one came out. I walked away having fulfilled a dream of mine, accomplished a personal mission, survived my first con, spent quality time with my best friend, made two new wonderful friends who I may even get to see in Scotland this summer, and I got to share my ECCC Outlander story with fellow fans.


Emerald City Comicon was one of the most spontaneous, chaotic, exhausting yet rewarding and memorable experiences I’ve ever had, and one that I will cherish for the rest of my life. My friends and family think I’m crazy for going. I’m not crazy, though; I’m an Outlander fan!


Have you ever attended a Fan Event like Emerald City ComicCon? 
If not, would you?  Tell us about your favorite Fan Girl moment.



27 comments

  1. So beautifully written Erica I have tears in my eyes. You have articulated what so many of us feel and admire about Diana's books, the show Outlander and Cait (and Sam). It is extraordinary how they have touched so many of our lives. I too have read so many personal stories from women in particular who have found strength and inspiration in incredibly hard, difficult circumstances, in part through the books, show and actors. Thank you for sharing your own, very personal story with us. Jayne

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    1. Thank you! I really enjoyed writing it, and I am so happy it has resonated with so many other fans.
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  2. Thanks Erika for a great commentary on your visit to Comicon Seattle and your letter
    t o Cait. I too, am a huge fan of Outlander to the point it has become an obsession, as a means of not having to face some very difficult health problems. I just love Sam and Cait they are absolutely fabulous actors and from everything I have seen about them they are such lovely people, so natural and unassuming. They seem to be so genuine with their fans and don't ever seem to turn anyone away even in the street. I'm sure she will read your letter and appreciate the sentiments contained which I would say reflect what the entire Outlander following think and feel about her both in her portrayal of Claire and as an actor but also as a wonderful human being.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words, and your faith in her reading the letter. Having met her, I truly believe she did read it. I'm glad that Outlander has helped you in overcoming personal challenges as well. What a gift we have been given!

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  3. Thank you for sharing your story. From what you wrote, it seems like you overcame many challenges during this experience. You are an inspiration!

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    1. Thank you, that is too kind! I think I really did, and I'll always have the post (and everyone's lovely comments!) as a reminder that I always have support in the Outlander community.

      -E

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  4. The closest I have come to an "event" is a special day at the Maryland Renaissance Festival a few years ago. Diana Gabaldon was to be making an appearance, doing a reading, a Q&A, and book signing. There were a limited number of tickets drawn from an email lottery and I WON one!!! I was so incredibly excited to be able to meet this woman who created our Outlander world. I've been an avid reader my entire life (I'm now 63 and a definite fangirl). Somehow I missed the Outlander books when they came out, but quickly got sucked into the Outlander universe once the PR started up for the show. I met Diana, got 2 books signed by her, and she admired my "dinna fash" tattoo--that's right, my love of Outlander led to a tattoo on this golden girl! So I can totally relate to your experience, maybe not on the grand scale of yours, but it was totally grand for me!

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    1. That's the beauty and wonder of Outlander! It means different things to all of us, and it's a beautiful thing! That is amazing you met Herself! What an incredible woman. I'm so glad you got to have your moment :)

      - E

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  5. Great job Erika! What a wonderful experience you had. Thanks so much for sharing it with us!

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    2. Thank you! I'm very grateful for the opportuntiy to have written about my experience and to share it with others :)

      - E

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  6. Erika you wonderful girl,thanks a lot for sharing your experience with us so nicely written post,have articulated all the feelings of an obsessive Outlander fan!I'm grateful to DG"s books,but really so much more grateful to Sam&Cait for bringing alive Jamie&Claire & yes roll on Voyager!
    Jamie&Claire

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    1. You are too sweet! Thank you so much :)

      - E

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  7. Well written and poignant, think a lot of fans would feel the same. Thanks for sharing

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  8. Great blog Erika!! I felt like I was there with you!!! By the look on your face, this was one of the best days of your life!!! You're beaming!!! These moments are few and far between in life, and I am so very very happy that you had the opportunity to experience this and can now carry the memory with you forever!!! Thanks so much for sharing this awesome day with us.

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    1. Thank you! It really was a magical moment and I am forever grateful that I get to look back on it for years to come :)

      - E

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  9. I too have never gone to anything like that but as soon as I saw the notice I knew I was going. I've been reading these stories for about 15 years. I think it is remarkable that in difficult times I turn to them. Just before Christmas a dear friend died and besides the I had the show to watch.
    I was able to give Sam a Seahawks pendent that my daughter beaded for him, at my request.
    Just framed my picture with Sam. A wonderful experience meeting the man who brings Jamie to life and is truly a nice man.

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    1. I'm so glad you got to experince this too! They really are great people, and so wonderful at bringing these beloved characters to life.

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  10. Beautifully written! Thanks for sharing and for putting it in white and black what so many of us feel. I was also there with my two daughters at the Comicon to meet Sam and Cait and also had a wonderful experience! I wish you the best and cheers for all your achievements! Bless you!

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    1. Thank you so much! I'm glad you got to experince meeting these two great individuals as well; how fun to have that memory with your daughters! Take care.

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  12. Thank you for your wonderful post on your experience at Emerald City Comic Con. Years ago I was very involved with an East Coast Comic Con, and Startrek, and Babylon 5, a series not from a book, but serialized into a five year story arc. I became not only a fan but a part of the movement and still have contact with one of the actors. Outlander is so different it is hard to explain, especially to those who aren't my age or who don't know what it was like before social media. Sam and Cait are gracious, giving, and exude the qualities we love in their character portrayals. That either has been the brunt of negativity is disgusting. Both are entitled to their lives as private people. They don't owe it to us to make our fantasies come true. I was happy when I read that Sam's heart was at his side, publicly at the after Oscar party, and Cait was with her man as well. After all they have given us since the beginning of this project don't we owe them the love to let them find their own perfect mate? I have located so many photos of Sam and Mackenzie on Pinterest that previously I hadn't noticed, so it's not like this is new. What it is is Sam saying deal with it! And so we continue to enjoy Sam and Cait's openness with new photos from South Africa. Still sending their love to us. How lucky are we as a Fandom? How many other shows have such a dedicated group of actors?
    One question I have regarding MPC2017. As a retired senior I don't have the price to join although I should dearly love to join. Since my loss of income associated with retirement I spend a lot of my time doing crafts instead of being as active as I once was. I could benefit from the project but instead I go to a gym and walk, because I am not strong enough to use the other gym toys. What else can I do to gain arm and leg strength?

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